This story really hit home with me, especially with what I am feeling right now. I'm so restless. So unsatisfied. I should be jumping up and down with the joy of life. I just can't figure out what's missing. Everything is ok, but nothing is right. I need something but I don't want anything. I love life but I don't want to face it. Everything is just draining me. I'm so tired. And that makes me feel guilty. There is nothing so terrible in my life that should make me feel like this. Actually, there is nothing terrible in my life at all. My family is healthy. My friends (yep all three of them) are always there to support me. I'm even coping with the pressures of school (kind of). I'm tired of being me. I want to be spontaneous.

I'm tired of defining myself by who I'm NOT. But I have no idea who I AM. I always thought I knew that. I've got this whole self-discovery thing happening in my life right now. I've never been good with changes in me. I'm great at changes in my life, in the lives of others, but I always thought I knew who *I* was, as a person. And I guess I don't. And I don't know where to find me.

Maybe I'm not looking deep enough in myself. Maybe the "me" I'm looking for was there all along in a place where I "would never think to look." I've gone through life in this big cloud of confusion, spiritual darkness, if you will. It's time for the fog to lift and the sun to come out. I just need a little time. I'm in here somewhere. Watch out little soul, I'm coming after you!!!

May you all think to look within yourselves for you divinity. Go after your souls, and when you find them, share your light with the world.

Love,
Supersteph